Pregnant and Honest: 14 Weeks
I am excited about this series where I will track my pregnancy in a real and honest fashion. I want to bring you along on this journey and give you a picture of what pregnancy really looks like. Each month I will be taking a bump picture, but not one that’s all done up because that is not my life. Most days I never get make up on my face, I look exhausted (because I am) and I’m lucky if I change my clothes or shower. These pictures will be far from glorious but I am doing this to show that you don’t have to be put together and “perfect” all of the time, especially when you’re pregnant.
Since I am being honest with you let me tell you a little secret… I don’t love pregnancy (everyone gasp and shake your head in disbelieve). I love the end result of pregnancy, a beautiful baby to love, but I don’t necessarily love the whole pregnancy process.
I could really do without all of the unpleasant things that come with pregnancy: the nausea, heartburn, food aversions, exhaustion, constipation, hemorrhoids, constant trips to the bathroom, back pain, joint pain, swelling, weight gain and insomnia just to name a few. My favorite part in the movie “What To Expect When Expecting” is when Wendy (played by Elizabeth Banks) gets up on stage at the baby convention and breaks down saying, “I call bullsh*t on the whole thing” in reference to pregnancy. I am totally Wendy in this movie. My whole life I wanted to become a mom and then when I was pregnant with my first I was miserable and hated almost everything about pregnancy.
There is one thing that I do LOVE about being pregnant and that is feeling all of the baby’s kicks. There is nothing that makes me feel more alive then to feel my little one moving around inside of me. It truly is a miracle and I am so excited that in just a few weeks I’ll be able to feel baby #2 kicking around.
My second pregnancy has already been so different from my first. As soon as I found out I was pregnant with Baby #1 I started taking picture of my belly, even though there wasn't a real bump for a while. I wore the same outfit for my weekly pictures and 95% of the time my hair and make up were done (until the end of course when I was huge and swollen and no amount of makeup could make that look better). I also had a cute chalkboard all done up each week and it displayed a fun little fact about the baby. This time I’m at 14 weeks and just got around to taking my first “bump” picture. And instead of a cute chalkboard I used a piece of cardboard because we just moved and that’s what I had available to write on. My hair wasn't brushed, I had no make-up on and I had been wearing that tank top and leginnings for 3 days. Just keeping it real and honest! Now I am sure that at some point in this second pregnancy I will do a cute chalk board picture because I enjoy making them, but I just dont have the time to do it every week.
From day one of this pregnancy I felt nauseous which is how I knew I was pregnant before the test ever read positive. When I’m pregnant I don’t just get “morning sickness,” I get what I like to call “all-day sickness” because I feel nauseous from the time I wake up until the time I go to bed. I lost 8lbs during the first trimester because I couldn’t eat anything. Eventually I found one sandwich that didn’t make me sick and oddly enough it was a BLT. So for the past 2 months I ate nothing but BLT’s for lunch and dinner. And then one day I was over them and haven’t had one since.
I knew that it was going to be challenging taking care of my very active toddler while I felt so sick but I somehow managed to make it through the first trimester! It wasn’t pretty, we watched WAY too much TV and I let my little guy eat in my bed all of the time, but I was in pure survival mode just trying to make it through the day. I had to learn to let go of the mom guilt and count my day as a sucess if my little man and I made it to bedtime in one piece.
At the same that I was feeling awful and nauseous my little man started teething, and not just one or 2 teeth but 8 FREAKIN teeth, 4 of which were molars. Needless to say this whole process of him teething went on for about 2 months. So he was miserable and I was miserable and we were pitiful together.
Stay tuned for next months post as I continue to track the good, the bad and the crazy about my second pregnancy.